learn a bit about me

have you ever loved someone and they didn't love you back?

yes twice and it was awful, the 2nd time the guy turned out to be gay (i still adore him i'm just gutted about him being gay) hey ho there's nothing I can do about it

he can't help being gay can he? he's still an adorable sweet guy he can just never be mine in that sense, we get on well though whenever we see each other (which isn't that often sadly) i'll always adore the chap : )

what was the last concert/theatre show you went to?

 Mika's dodgy holiday tour in Brixton London (feb 28th 2008)

The last show I saw at the theatre was Derren Brown's Mind control an evening of wonders at grimsby auditorium march 6th & 7th 2008

If you've had your heart broken, do you still love the girl/guy? and would you stil wanna be with them if they said they loved you

 yes I've had my heart broken (back in October 2007) when the man I loved came out as gay so there is no chance he'd say he loved me I'm afraid : (

How long have you been in love with the person you're currently in love with? and what made you fall in love with him/her?

 I've been in love since may the 10th 2004 (i've fancied him since october 24th 2003 though)  I never actually had any intentions of falling in love with him to be honest it just kinda happened! What made me fall in love with him is his amazing gentlemanly ways I saw just how much of a sweet lovely man he is

 and he is also an incredibly funny man and amazingly handsome, he just came across to me as the most sweetest most adorable most funny gentleman i have ever had the pleasure of meeting and as I got chatting to him more my opinion of him was confirmed!

 He is such a gentleman so polite and friendly and sweet and I couldn't resist his charms or his beautiful eyes and smile either!!!

he is just so easy to be around!! I feel more comfortable with him than i do around anyone else even people i've known a lifetime!!

 Sadly though he can't be my boyfriend as he is gay : (

I still adore him though and can't wait to see him again!! he'll always have a special place in my heart despite the severe pain and heartache he caused me!

Are you an 80's guy/girl like me?? If so what year were you born?

Yup I was born on october the 23rd 1985 

What is your favourite quote?

A man of quality is not threatened by a woman of equality

I saw it on a tshirt christina aguilera was wearing once ages ago!!!

I've suffered 9 traumas in 10 years

been  through several severe illnesses in lifetime

been thorugh heartbreak twice (2nd time being most severe)

been bereved  several times in a short space of time

A bit of a loner but not by choice

don't fit in a bit of an outisder

have scoliosis

have arthritis

have mild hypermobility syndrome (joint problem)

CHANTELLE ON: RELIGION...

I'm not religious yet i'm not an atheist I believe there may well be a god but I'm not too sure I feel it's sensible to question your beliefs & to have an open mind about most things in life but as Derren Brown would say, have an open mind just don't be so open minded you're brain falls out (i love that quote so funny)

I have attended church as a child with my mother, I have and still do occasionally pray, I haven't been to church in years mind you.

I  was never christned but don't feel it's a major problem to me.

I certainly want to marry in a church though i feel it's the best way & it'd feel right for me

I used to own dozens and dozens of st christopher pendants and crosses and crucifixes I had a bit of a weird obsession with them as a kid (I don't know why? lol)

 ok maybe nothing to do with religion (well not much anyhow but my half sister's surname is moses lol) on a couple of occasions places she's visited have flooded lmfao : )

Ok I know that shouldn't be funny but I always thought moses was supposed to part the seas or something not flood places lmfao : )

CHANTELLE ON LOVE.....

 Love to me is a very important thing!! pretty much as important to me as the air that I breathe!!! I would love to one day fall in love with a sweet lovely guy, marry him and maybe even have kids too, I'm someone who believes in love, soulmates and marriage!!

I believe if you're in a relationship/married you don't just give up on it at the 1st sign of trouble, i feel you should do everything you can to make your relationship/marriage work out only give in if it really is well and truly beyond all hope and repair, know when to fight to save the relationship but also know when it's just really over and you're essentially banging your head against that famous ol' brick wall!!!

Who I wanna settle down with.. A guy who is sweet, loving, funny, tender, passionate, faithful, wants a stable relationship, isn't interested in one night stands or a short term unserious relationship, a guy who like me has had struggles in life so will kinda get where I'm coming from, a guywho doesn't fit in like me, a guy who isn't afraid to be himself, a guy who likes (or at least accepts) tamagotch's, winnie the pooh, Hello kitty, snoopy, garfield, and all other cartoons and toys i like lol, I just basically want a nice loving kind decent man who will love me for me & respect me & wants a long term relationship and marriage too!

To me the guy I date/marry his job, appearance, where he's from, his religion/non religion/beliefs etc... aren't important!!!

I'll date a christian, a buddhist, a catholic, an athiest, agnostic, spiritual guy or other kinda guy

 I'll date black, white or half caste

I'll date british, lebanese, puerto rican, australian, american, african, japanese, portuguese, french, serbian, croatian, asian, indian etc etc etc... you get my drift right?!? it basically doesn't matter to me where the guy is from as long as he's a nice chap!

I'll date rich, poor and anything in between, famous non famous, my age or older.

Tall or short fat or thin or somewhere in between

the most important thing to me is not the size of a guys wallet, his waist his cock but the size of his heart!!!

allow me to introduce myself I want you to come a little bit closer I'd like you to get to know me a little bit better meet the real me

sorry you can't define me sorry i break the mold sorry that I speak my mind sorry don't do what i'm told

sorry if i don't fake it sorry i come so real

I will never hide what I really feel no way oh

so here it is no hype, no gloss, no pretence, just me

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